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Thursday, May 27, 2004
2:36 AM

Wow!!! I was Gunbounded for the whole afternoon till evening time! Haha.. First time that i won GP as high as 14 in a round.. I'm so HAPPY!!! Well, i guessed i will be able to get promoted soon.. And not remained as double hammer (had been double hammer for so long already). Hehe..

Kw called me today!! Another thing worth happy for.. Haha.. He juz came back from his 3 days outfield for hole digging.. Din expect to receive any call from him this week cos he din bring in his hp to tekong. Haha.. And din expect he can remembered my phone number cos he is poor at remembering numbers like birthday dates etc. So shud be something i can be happy for rite?? Haha.. Anyway, dunno whether it is a good thing or bad thing lor.. Actually, wanted to use this wk to try to forget abt him since he wun be able to contact me without his hp (no sms n calls). Dat contributed to part of the reason why i encouraged him not to bring in his hp. Well... looks like my plan failed.. He still managed to call me and obviously i was very very happy to receive his call. Guess i just can't forget about him for the time being, at least not now. (>_<)

Anyway, results coming out tmr!!!!!!! GREAT, I AM SOOOO WORRIED!!!!! Oh no, will i be able to pass all modules?? My RM, IB and PM!!! These 3 modules r the ones that i'm most worried!!! Hopefully, i can at least get a D for each.. Hai.. i oso dun wan to haf Ds, but no choice lah.. So long as i can pass and at least get D, i'm happy already!!!

Someone, pls pray hard for me ba.... =(

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Tuesday, May 25, 2004
11:16 PM

As usual, slacked for the whole day today. But at least i did something. I finally do some houseworks at home le.. Haha.. Sweeping, mopping, washing toilet and bathroom.. Wow.. Seems quite alot huh.. haha.. Tmr going to do somemore too.. My house seems to be quite dirty. Wanna clean it by this week. But think its very difficult lor cos next few days already got activity going on le.. Haha..

Last night, wanted to sleep early cos for almost 3 weeks, i had been sleeping at ard 4 or 5 am.. So, i logged off quite early.. But unfortunately, I din manage to sleep early. I talked on phone until 2plus going 3am. Make a guess who i talked to, i'm sure u will get it wrong.. Haha.. I was talking to Dong Han!!! Well, saw him online last nite and was chatting wif him. He asked me out again and we agreed to meet up on this coming friday. But before long, his sis wanna use comp, so he got to log off. We were talking halfway on what to do on fri, he said wanna do something unusual unlike watching movie etc so i asked him to go and think about it before he logs off. Just when i was preparing to go slp, i suddenly tot of the idea to go sing ktv (something unusual mah, nvr sing wif him b4), so i msged him whether wanna sing ktv. He replied back asking me whether he can call me to talk about it, so i let him call me lor as its quite troublesome to talk thru msging. And who noes this call lasted sooo long.. Haha, this is the first time i talked to him sooo long through phone lor and somemore its so late at nite~ Oh well, he was like dunno wat to say, so everytime when we break into silence, i had to start on some topic to talk about..(-_-") But i can sensed that he is trying very hard not to let the conversation break into silence. Dun ask me how, i oso dunno y we still can talk for so long.. Haha..

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Sunday, May 23, 2004
11:41 PM

Thursday
Quite a bad day for me. Supposed to give tution in 9am this morning. But overslept, woke in a shock by a sms from kw at 8am. Rushed all the way, including running to catch the bus. But luckily, i reached my tutee hse at 9.05am, although was late, but not very late. Her dad was there too, haven't went off for work. Well, i was thinking, i was so lucky, if i'm very very late, i might give her dad a bad impression. Haha.. Next was the content of the sms received. Actually, we were supposed to be celebrating chris's 21st b'day on sat. But kw said dat he wasn't able to meet up for the celebration, not even at night because he had something on but din specified wat's the thing on. So upset when i saw the msg and it spoilt my mood for the whole day. Dat's y after tution, i went home straight away instead of going to qing's hse. Partly no mood and partly very tired. But at night, things changed for the better le. Juz when br and i were discussing what to do on sat wif so little people coming, kw called. He said he will be able to make it after 10pm and said wat's he having on sat dat makes him not free. Afterdat, had a conference call wif br, nic, sihui and chris. Haha.. It was so funny lor, so many ppl toking at the same time.

Friday
Woke up quite late today and my morning was gone like dat. Went to meet sh at causeway point and shopping! Sh bought lots and lots of things while i only bought a pair of shoes from Charles & Keith which i had targeted long time ago. Finally, i decided to buy it! Afterdat, we went to woodlands lib to find br and nic. Wanted to write the bday card for chris but who noes he reached there b4 i could complete writing my wishes for him. In the end, couldn't write anymore and i took the card home to design and complete writing. Wow!! Dinner that day was POWER! Had Double ring pizza!! Argh.. so fattening and full. But it was Chris's bday dat day, so no choice lah.. Looks like i'll definitely grow fatter and fatter as day past by.

Saturday
Original plan was to watch movie ard 4plus, dinner ard 6plus and cake ard 9plus.
But we seems to be like quite suay dat day. Well, br, nic, sh and i met ard 1 plus to write the bday card and went to suntec to order cake and had our late lunch. From there, we walk over to marina square and we sort of got lost! Becos of the closure of the metro at ms, we cant walk thru the metro the enter ms, so had to take a longer route. We took a wrong turn and we ended up in PAN-PACIFIC HOTEL!!! Walked all the way back and follow the GREEN footsteps on the ground and the directions to ms. Dat's not the end, the food court at ms oso closed down and everything was under renovation and we got to walk a big big round to reach the GV at ms. Becos of those obstacles, we reached there ard 4 and tickets for Van Helsing was sold out already!! Chris wanted to watch dat show but alas, we couldn't watch it. Haha.. maybe it is fated not for me to watch a second time. Hehe.. So nothing we can do, went to play pool for ard and hr and head back towards Suntec for dinner. Queued for the sizzler, but lucky we went there earlier, cos the queue behind us was getting longer and longer as we wait. Saw 1 of my classmates in IS Small Grp Comm class at Sizzler and we were like shocked and happy to each other. (n_n) Finally, we got our seats just as kw arrived. So lucky of him dun need to queue. All of us ate until we were so full and bloated and we got 20% discount becos of my friend. Hehe. Afterdat, we went to espanade there hoping we can find some place to sit down and cut the cake. After a long walk, finally settled down. Sang b'day, took photos and cut cake and eat again!! There were leftover cakes so we played games and the loser got to eat 1 slice of the cake as forfeit. Unfortunately, i lost a few times so i got to eat the cake. But so good of br and nic to cut the cake into smaller pieces.. Haha.. Well, the Birthday boy din get to loss as much so cant sabotage him.. =( After finishing up the cake, we headed home cos Br, nic and sh cant stay out till too late. And that marks the end of the day's excitment. Hmm... Waiting for the next outing to come soon, but dunno when will it be...

Sunday
Quite a boring day at home. As usual, watch tv, surf net and sleep take up most of my time today. Went online ard evening time and saw kw online. But soon he went offline before i even msg him. Just as disappointment was evolving within my heart, my hse phone rang. Quite surprised when i heard it was his voice! He was seeking for my opinion on whether to bring his hp in to tekong cos he said his whole company was told not to bring in hp this week and he was in a dilemma. He came up wif all sorts of ideas on where to hide his hp if he is bringing in. Well, it was quite funny lor and i couldn't stop laughing. But anyway, i advised him not to bring in just in case really got spot check and he din manage to hide it and it will results in confinement and his hp being confiscated. In the end, he choose not to bring hp in.. But hopes that he will not be in big depression without his hp. Well.. this means i wun be receiving any call or sms from him for 1 week!!! Arghh... Y did i encourage him not to bring his hp?? Hope dat i will not be in big depression for this 1 whole week too... Haha... (-_-")

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Thursday, May 20, 2004
12:59 AM

Long time nvr blog le.. Quite busy ba.. But dun ask me wat am i busy abt, cos i oso dunno.. Haha...

Went KTV on Sunday, all of us were late. But Br and i were the first to arrive, surprisingly, we'd got quite a big room. The room had made br and me almost went crazy.. haha, cos normally, quite difficult to get such a big room one. Need to be very heng, then can get de. Somemore, we got wireless mic. Wow! Really sang till very shiok b4 all the rest reached. Haha.. (^_^)

Well, i thought i could be strong and act as though nothing had happened before. Perhaps i had overestimated myself. Dat day, both kw and my behaviours were abit strange, or rather, quite different. I could feel the awkward atmosphere between us although both of us were trying very hard to pretend nothing had happened. Sad to say, i din really dare to look at him straight when i'm talking to him and i hardly talk to him dat day. Chris brought a taiwanese fren along to the ktv session and he sings quite well oso. Br was so thrilled by the duet they had becos he really sound like Daniel Chan. After KTV, we went to Starbucks for coffee and kw was rather quiet. Not only that, he was like very sad like dat cos he could hardly laugh at those lame jokes we were talking about. He went off quite early ard 5plus becos he needs to go home and prepare to book in later on. Well, he's always like dat, whenever he's going to book in, he will be very depressed. That night, we talked on phone when he was booking in, he said he was very sad becos booking in le and worst still, mon to wed, he got field camp (or something like dat), need to stay outfield for 3 days and cant use phone. Hai~~ i dunno how to console him... In fact, i was even more sad than him lor (he just dunno), but i still need to console him.. In the end, i was totally sad (everything contributed to my sadness). A question i had been pondering for the whole night, how come i could actually talk to him so freely through phone but not face to face? (-_-") Anyway, i hope by chatting with him will reduce the sadness that he was having.

Soon, 3 days past and its already Wednesday le. Well, humans are funny. When you know something won't happen, you won't pin for it that much. But when you know that something will happen, even a very trival matter, you can actually wait and longs for it to occurs even the chance is 0.01%. That applies to me. For the past 3 days, i knew kw was outfield and won't be able to msg me or call me, so i don't really bother to take a look at my hp cos i know that even if i got msg received, it was not sent by the person whom i had been hoping for. But tonight, i keep looking at my hp, hoping it will ring. The process of waiting for hp to ring was so torturous. But finally, it rang, to my gladness after such a long wait. :p

Sometimes i asked myself, why am i still so persistent, still clinging on when i had already gotten the answer. Sadly, i couldn't answer myself. I wished i had known the reasons too. Am i just silly or being optimistic by cherishing a little hope that there will be a good ending somehow? Well, as time past, i began to feel doubtful about the good ending. If he were to ignore me totally and avoids me, i know i'll be even more hurt. So when he choose not to avoid me and still msg and call me as per normal, can i conclude that this is already a good ending? Really thought of giving up by convincing myself this is already a good ending and don't hope for more. But unfortunately, i never succeed, maybe i wasn't determined to ba. I don't wish to put him as my history, but present is too heartbreaking. What should i do??

"GIVING UP DOESN'T MEAN YOU ARE A WEAKLING, IT ONLY SHOWS THAT YOU ARE BRAVE ENOUGH TO LET GO."
Heard this sentence on 933 days ago and felt that it is quite nice. My answers was found in there. I wasn't brave enough to let go. Yes, indeed. I wasn't brave to let go, dat's why i could not give up. In order to forget one person, one has to face it, accept it, handle it and lastly, let go of it. Perhaps if i'm able to learn to do all that one day, maybe i'll be much more happier.

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Saturday, May 15, 2004
10:59 PM

Today is already Saturday. Time past so fast, in a wink like dat, graduation prom night was over before i knew it. Last week still so excited about this prom night thing, wondering what will happen on the day itself, how will i look like, izzit too overdress etc. Felt so excited at the same time so nervous. But as the prom night was getting nearer each day, the excitement was sort of vanished, i suddenly felt so sian about it. Reason being was, just a few hours of that night, i had spent so much on it. Well, but since already spent on it le, no choice but have to go. But luckily, it din turn out to be that bad. The whole thing overall was quite ok, although not as in very fun but still passable. I managed to get back my money from dat stupid idiot ralph! So glad. Haha. What was so memorable was all those photographs that i had took during dat night. Finally managed to jiaxin to take photos wif us le. (n_n) Well, not all pictures taken were nice but its still something worth keeping.

Tomorrow going to buy present for Jsb and Chris wif BR cos their b'day coming soon. This means i'm going broke soon. Haha.. So long nvr go shopping wif Br le, cant wait for tmr to come. But most importantly is i'm going for KTV tmr!!! Haha.. Wif KW,BR and Chris. Long long time nvr go singing wif them le.. hehe~ Felt so happy now.. haha.. ~(^_^)~
Need to slp early tonite, so that tmr i wun overslept and wun be late.. haha.. YAY~~ Alright, think i will stop here.. going slp soon after a game of GB. Haha..

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Thursday, May 13, 2004
1:40 AM

My first blogging session after my account had been set up for a long time due to time constraint. No choice, gotta study for my exams. Well, this account was set up in the middle of my study week so i got no time to maintain it. Finally, i found time...

Woke up late today, then went to meet qing to get stuffs for our Grad Nite and head towards her hse for a Trial An Error makeup session. Haha.. It was fun! Both of us changed into our grown and trying to fix our hairstyles. Qing got her curler to curl her hair wif my help.. but i think i had made a big disaster on her hair.. haha.. It was quite messy, perhaps me 1st time doing it so no experience.. "So Sorry, Qing" Hopefully i can do better on friday huh.. But qing so pro lor.. helped me do my make up until so nice.. hehe.. thanks arh! :p

Wanted to apply for SIM, but dunno which Uni to choose, RMIT or UOL. So frustrating lor.. Dunno which one is better and more recognise..

RMIT:
1. Project-based
2. 2 yrs only
3. certain modules will be exempted
UOL:
1. Exam-based
2. 3 yrs
3. No modules r exempted cos bridging course over le.

Can anyone tell me which is better?? Oh no, better make my decision quick.. cos UOL application due date is on 15th April which is this SATURDAY!! OMG!! Which one??

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